i had the bridge dream again last night

so last night i had the same bridge dream i have that is recurring.

usually in the dream someone is shoving me in a car, in the back seat to make me go over this bridge that is huge. it reminds me of the bridge to canada that we used to go over when i was a kid....

so last night it was my mom and she was the one that was scared and i was not scared. for the first time in this dream that i have, i was totally not afraid and i was trying to convince my mother to go over and she would go in a boat she said.

i ended up driving this giant bus over the bridge.

in past dreams i never drive. lydia says that the bridge represents change and this time maybe i welcome the change and am not scared of whatever change is going to happen. kelly told me once that water in dreams represents emotion. the water is what i am scared of in the dreams.

last night before sleep i was talking to a friend about how i am going to help this kid in henry's school. this kid's mother is a dead beat and never takes frankie to school when it's her days to watch him so i offered to take him for free.

i won't be taking any money either and my friend was asking why i was even getting involved. that it wasn't my place. i understand that point. i also know that i wanted to see if i could help. i don't like seeing kids getting the shaft. so i am going to do a trial run this week and see how it goes. i guess i just want to let frankie know that there are nice people in the world.

who knows what will happen.

anyhow, the dream! in past dreams it has always been either people in my family forcing me to go over the bridge or it has been asian tourists or other ethnic tourists....very strange.

then the rest of the dream was me at the park with the kids and lauren and nate (some neighbors of henry) were there and lauren is the kind of person that is always looking good no matter what but in the dream she had no make up and was looking very hungover-ish.....

then corey had a tub and it was filled with all this crap and we couldn't get the water to go down....again with a water reference.

the oddest part was that on the bridge it was my mother of all family members and me....and i was finally not scared. i have to wonder if i will ever have the bridge dream again because of me not being afraid.

weird.

good night and happy dreaming!